I have noticed that when you lose someone so close to you that it seems to get worse rather than better. I have been missing my husband more than ever. I miss his smile. I miss talking to him about the simple things like how the day went for each of us. The empty lonely feeling is so deep within that it is hard to control. Sometimes the emotions just come screaming out. It is deep within my soul. I WANT HIM HERE WITH ME. I want him to see his new granddaughter and experience the life of a little girl. I want to grow old with him. I want to retire with him. I want all these things that can not be. I will learn to accept the emptiness within me. I will learn to live my life alone. I know this. I just want the pain to lessen. I pray for God's goodness. I pray for peace.
Peace.
